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I love this little collection of letters and symbols. Itโ€™s been a part of my life for almost 6 years now. Eventually, Iโ€™m sure itโ€™ll surface on some untatted expanse of my skin. Itโ€™s that special to me. I would do another book giveaway for anyone who can figure out what it signifies, but no one would be able to solve it. I doubt that even a trained CIA agent could crack the code . . .

In fact, if you downloaded Year of the Firefly or The Weight of Entanglement during this monthโ€™s eBook giveaway, you might have noticed this little dyslexic equation on the very bottom of the back side of the โ€œPreviewโ€ page. Itโ€™s near the end. But if you missed it, youโ€™re not alone. It took me over a month to spot it. And itโ€™s my book.

It all started around New Yearโ€™s of 2019 when a redhead wandered into my orbit. Like most good things in my life, it was the novels that drew her in. She read Sticks & Stones and decided to reach out. Somewhere over the thousands of emails that were exchanged over the ensuing year and a half, we became extremely close. About as close as two people on opposite sides of the razor wire can be. (For a more detailed account of this, check out โ€œShonda Kerry,โ€ an excerpt from Letters to the Universe, currently up on my Substack page.)

In addition to being beautiful, kind, and the best friend Iโ€™ve ever had, Shonda is smart, deliberate, thorough . . . So much so that when the files to my first novel, Consider the Dragonfly, became corrupted and the book appeared to be unsalvageable, she went in and saved it, learning the delicate art of interior formatting in the process. She has since expanded her skill set to include editing, cover design, and the intricacies of the independent publishing industry as well. My girl. โค For close to a decade, I longed for someone to care about these books as much as I do. I think Shonda actually cares more than I do. If that is possible. In the same way I agonize over just the right word, she can spend days deliberating over just the right typeset. Iโ€™m not sure how this level of care translates to eBooks because Iโ€™ve never actually seen an eBook, but I know that the physical books are beautiful. If you ever have the opportunity to hold one, see if you disagree . . .

But back to this little sign (>ij=) and the story behind it. Around the time Shonda was sorting out Consider the Dragonfly, she began referring to the book as =j= in her emails when notifying me of her progress. Kinda looks like a dragonfly, doesnโ€™t it? Although my first four novels were already floating around the prison systemโ€”and there had even been a newspaper article about me in my hometown paperโ€”we still tried to keep our messages about the books relatively cryptic. As long as the administration didnโ€™t specifically say I had to stop writing, I could continue mailing my handwritten manuscripts home. While it was clear that I was a big fan of the dragonfly, Shonda was more of a firefly girl. (Apparently, calling them โ€œlightning bugsโ€ is a Southern thing.) At one point she was even considering getting a tattoo of the bioluminescent insect. I know this because she sent me a two-page overview of its legend and history. Iโ€™m not sure when the first cyberglyphic firefly appeared in the back and forth of our emails, but it looked sort of like this: >i< Or maybe this: >!< Canโ€™t remember. All I know is that somewhere around the end of that first year, I started ending messages typing โ€œ=j= loves >i< 48โ€. Which, over time, she converted to a single symbol: >ij= The merging of the two into one, dragonfly and firefly in mid-flight.

Although Shonda has very little in common with the character Miranda McGuireโ€”aside from hair color and intelligenceโ€”I named the book โ€œYear of the Fireflyโ€ as acknowledgement of her arrival on the timeline of my own life. Like every other book that Iโ€™ve written since, she has been deeply involved in the post-production process. When I finally received an authorโ€™s copy in late 2020, I donโ€™t know who was more excited, me or her. I was blown away by the crispness of the font, the Astral Pipeline imprint logo on the spine, the way Miranda Rights slanted across the bottom in dark ink, how professional the โ€œPreviewโ€ page looked . . . I kept catching myself holding it like a proud father, thumbing through the pages lovingly. Remember, Iโ€™ve been in here for most of my life. And Iโ€™ll never have kids of my own. My books are my kids. My legacy. A thousand years from now theyโ€™ll still be around. Proof that I once lived and wrote here on Planet Earth. It was during one of these times, a good month after I received the book, that I stumbled upon something hidden at the end. On the back side of the โ€œPreviewโ€ page was a little collection of symbols: >ij=

She never mentioned it. Just stashed it back there to let me find it myself. My Quiet Storm. My Solitary Girl. Shonda.

This series is the most challenging thing Iโ€™ve ever written. It took over 5 years, 3 books, and 220,000 words to get down. Iโ€™m happy to be done with it even though I will miss hanging out with the women in the story. Mothers, survivors, badasses, every one of them. But itโ€™s finally time to move on. Not just from the story either. In real life too. Law of Momentumโ€”the final book in the Miranda Rights trilogyโ€”is the last novel I will write from a prison cell. Number 8 overall. My lifeโ€™s work. Iโ€™m very proud of it. It will be available on Election Day. Iโ€™ll never forget the years I spent writing it. The different cells I was in and the cellmates I had. Or all the women, free and imprisoned, who contributed to the story. But mostly Iโ€™ll remember it as the baby I had with Shonda. A little redhead girl named Miranda, radiant with intelligence and unlimited possibility. Six years after that first letter, we are still going strong. Still committed to this journey, still quantumly entangled, still putting out these books. I figured I was overdue to tell the world about her.

Entanglement Giveaway

If youโ€™ve already read Year of the Firefly, Book One of the Miranda Rights series, but havenโ€™t gotten to read Book Two yet, you can download The Weight of Entanglement FREE in eBook format on Amazon from October 18-22 (promo ends at midnight Pacific Standard Time on the 22nd). If youโ€™ve already read it, you might remember the orderly who has a broken heart tattooed beneath her eye. Well, thereโ€™s a conversation from October 1st between me and Mom that Iโ€™d like to share with you. It made our day to read this readerโ€™s comments:

Chris, I don’t remember seeing this on Amazon from three months ago. But wow. Sent to Shonda too.  ILY – Mom

Hey mom. Yes, I am aware of this ladyโ€™s review. Although the details are in dispute ๐Ÿ™‚ my version is as follows:

I have to create telling characteristics in order to differentiate the women in the books. Some are redheaded, some are blond, some are Latina, some are black… In Book Two, I gave a random confinement orderly a broken heart tattoo under her eye. Shonda says I saw it on the news. I donโ€™t recall seeing it anywhere except on many of the faceless male prisoners that have crossed my path over the years. But here is the cool part… Shonda, unbeknownst to me, found a girl with the same tattoo under her eye on the FDC inmate locater and sent her Firefly and Entanglement. This reviewer is her mom. Pretty cool, right? These books are reaching the people they are supposed to, even if the world knows nothing about them… Yet. Canโ€™t wait to send her Book Three! Just a couple more weeks(!). Love you. x

By the way, Book Threeโ€”The Law of Momentumโ€”will be available in a couple of weeks. If youโ€™ve been waiting, be on the lookout. โ€œSet against the tumultuous backdrop of 2021 and threaded with the headlines of the era, old friendsโ€”and determined enemiesโ€”return in this third book of the Miranda Rights series.โ€

Image of an unbalanced scales of justice.

Shonda Kerry

Excerpt from “Letters to the Universe”

Image of a mailbox atop a mountain peak against a background of night stars.

Who is Shonda? you may be wondering.

I realize Iโ€™ve been jumping around a bit, but in the linear arc of this journeyโ€”this writing journey, this prison journey, this life journeyโ€”the emergence of Shonda represents the lightning crash moment where nothing after would ever be the same.

When she arrived on the scene in late 2018 in the form of a Christmas card, my self-confidence was eroding. Despite a sporadic trickle of correspondence from incarcerated readers, my books remained unknown in the free world. The 120,000-word, meticulously edited and formatted file that was Consider the Dragonfly had fallen into a state of disrepair after the company formerly known as CreateSpace folded into Kindle Direct Publishing. A minor revision attempt sent the novel spiraling into chaos, leaving it with a slender inch of condensed text and fat, five-inch marginsโ€”a scrambled mess that even the talented Kelly Conrad could not unravel. My second book, With Arms Unbound, was languishing unread on the departmentโ€™s aforementioned banned reading list. Again, a frustrating situation since much of my fanbase is behind bars. After an initial bump, Sticks & Stones had settled into an Amazon Best Sellers ranking in the high millions, just south of abysmal. It was becoming obvious that my nephew Judeโ€™s first big royalty check would barely amount to the price of a few stuffed animals. And to top it all off, my greatest triumph, my magnum opus, On the Shoulders of Giants, had recently lost the Writerโ€™s Digest Self-Published Book Awards . . . to a cookbook. (A cookbook!) It didnโ€™t even merit an honorable mention. I sound whiny, I know. But it was Christmas and I was homesick. Moreover, I wasnโ€™t writing, which always amplifies the critical voice in my head. Iโ€™m generally a glass-half-full kinda guy. And anyone whoโ€™s done time with me knows that Iโ€™m committed to the long view when it comes to my novels. For years, I had taken solace in NPR book critic Maureen Corriganโ€™s words: โ€œGreat books eventually find their audience.โ€ But in December of 2018, I was beginning to wonder if mine were all that great.

Enter Shonda, a self-described nerdy girl and work-at-home mom who read Sticks & Stones and a handful of the essays in this book around that same time and felt compelled to write. The second oldest of seven children born to a social worker turned teacher and a Detroit autoworker with the soul of a poet; Shonda is one of the most intelligent, most intuitive people Iโ€™ve ever known. This was evident from the jump, but it was strikingly clear a couple months later when we began reading self-improvement books togetherโ€”the genesis of what would later become the Astral Pipeline Book Club. Her chapter-by-chapter analysis read like scholarly commentary: sharp, insightful, and with an economy of words. Her ability to absorb, retain, and distill information bordered on preternatural. Even though she had never published a single essay, she quickly became one of my favorite writers. As hundreds of emails flowed between us, ping-ponging 2,000 miles back and forth across the continent, all the drift and inertia of 2018 began to evaporate. I was inspired by this peculiar and pragmatic woman, my polar opposite in many waysโ€”reserved where I am impulsive, guarded where I can be unrestrained, disciplined where I tend to be disorderly. Iโ€™d never met anyone like her; a level 47 dungeon master in the lost art of listening, the still water to my babbling brook. And she believed in me(!) In my stories, in my message, in my mission. I would have never crossed paths with a woman like Shonda in my former life, unless she happened to be filling the tank of her minivan at a gas station I was robbing. In some ways I feel like I wrote her into my orbit, like her presence alone is a spoil of war . . . The War of Art.[1] But this was no time for celebration, no time for a victory lap. I had a novel to write. And my release date was rapidly approaching. It was time to get to work. I had already settled on the bones of the story, one that focused on the female prison experience. But suddenly, details were locking into place. The pages of my journal began to fill with scene ideas and snippets of dialogue. Shadows and silhouettes of characters pulled into focus. I could finally visualize Year of the Fireflyโ€™s heroine. No surprise she was a highly intelligent redhead. Art may not always imitate life, but life always informs art. This has been my experience at least.

That being said, Miranda McGuire is no carbon copy of Shonda. Intellect and hair color are where the similarities end. Shonda is far from a liberal activist, her father was not a bipolar and compulsive gambler, she did not have a baby in the Escambia County jail, and although sheโ€™s been to prison multiple times, this was only to visit me. She also does not use drugs. Thank God. It was her clean and focused mind that was able to reverse-engineer the colossal snarl that was Consider the Dragonfly and restore it to sanity, learning the subtleties of interior formatting in the process. Then she turned her attention to the other areas of the publishing worldโ€”cover design, copyrighting, marketing, ebooks. Her knowledge quickly surpassed mine. All I really know how to do is what Iโ€™m doing right now: sit cross-legged on this bunk with a pen in my hand and pad in my lap, the rainforest pumping though my earbuds on repeat, while I wrestle these words onto the page. The craft. This is where Iโ€™ve invested my time and energy over the years. And it has been a sound investment across the board; it changed my life, saved my life, altered the course of my destiny. But ever since this journey began, I had been waiting for someone out there to come along, someone who believed in the books, someone who shared my vision, someone to build with, someone who cares as much as I do . . .

Flip to the front of this book. Isnโ€™t it captivating? That mountain-peak mailbox, the starlit sky, the river of city lights glowing in the distance. Beautiful, right? As a rule, itโ€™s bad form to refer to oneโ€™s own book cover as โ€œcaptivatingโ€ and โ€œbeautiful.โ€ But I didnโ€™t design it. This is Shondaโ€™s handiwork. The authenticity stamp certifying that these words were written by a human and not generated by artificial intelligence? Conceived and designed by Shonda. This crisp and elegant typeface? Pure Shonda. The editing, the formatting, the part breaks. Shonda. The fact that for the first time in twelve years, a Malcolm Ivey book will be available in hardcover? Iโ€™ll give you three guesses.

In July of 2020, we founded Astral Pipeline Books. Never again would there be a blank space on the spines of my novels where the publishing companyโ€™s imprint belongsโ€”the telltale mark of an amateur. Thanks to Shonda, I graduated from self-publisher to indie publisher. Big moment. Three years later, I still catch myself gazing at the logo; those spinning photons, that quasar. Tempus fugit, amor manet. Damn right. In the coming years, I envision a literary home for talented authors who might have otherwise given up on their dreams. And a book club with a registry of thousands. Maybe even hundreds of thousands. But if none of this happens, if I remain the only writer under the AP umbrella and we keep churning out these obscure prison novels every couple years for the duration, if the Astral Pipeline Book Club never expands beyond its two original members . . . I will still consider it a massive success. How could I not? Remember, in March of 2005โ€”two months after George W. Bush was sworn in as Presidentโ€”a skeletal, crack-addicted, lost young man covered in blood-soaked bandages from police K-9 bites was staggering around central booking and detention, looking for a place to hang himself. The fact that I made it from there to here is a miracle. The fact that youโ€™re holding this book in your hands is a miracle. Like Izzy says in the prologue of On the Shoulders of Giants, โ€œWriting has given me an identity other than failure, loser, career criminal.โ€ I couldnโ€™t agree more.

Sidenote about Giants: Writerโ€™s Digest magazine allows authors five years from the publication date of a given novel to enter it in their annual Self-Published Book Awards. You can enter as many times as you want within that window, but I never bothered to resubmit after being snubbed in 2017. I poured my soul into that novel. If those tight-assed judges couldnโ€™t see the beauty and wonder in it, fuck โ€™em. The people I wrote it forโ€”the forgotten, the lost, the state raisedโ€”all seemed to love it. They passed it around cellblocks and open-bay dormitories like it was the latest David Baldacci novel. This was all the confirmation I needed. But in 2020, Shonda talked me into entering it once more, just before the deadline . . . and it won. First place, mainstream/literary fiction category. Paid a thousand bucks.[2]

But books and business aside, Shonda is the best thing thatโ€™s ever happened to me. Honest, kind, unwavering. Iโ€™ve never had a better friend. A lifetime ago, I remember lying on a slab of concrete at a Central Florida prison called Sumter Correctional, contemplating the busy night sky. At a time when other kids my age were thinking about prom and graduation, I was just beginning a nine-year bid in the Department of Corrections. Nine years seems like nothing now. A wisp of smoke. Iโ€™ve served twice that long on this current sentence alone. But at that age, nine years felt like an eternity. Dad had just died, old friends were fading, my girlfriend was long gone. Life as I knew it was changing. I remember looking up at the stars that night, lonesome as hell, imagining that somewhere beneath the same sky, a girl was getting ready to go outโ€”brushing her hair, applying makeup, trying on outfits in front of a mirror; unaware that her life was on a collision course with mine. It took decades for our paths to align, but when she finally showed up, I knew exactly who she was: a lost prayer. A letter to the Universe, answered. My solitary girl. My quiet storm. Shonda.


  1. If youโ€™re a writer (or musician or a painter or a sculptor or a human being living on Planet Earth) and you have not read Steven Pressfieldโ€™s masterful book on battling resistance, do yourself a favor: buy it now. Your unlived life awaits.
  2. I hereby withdraw my previous statement about tight-assed judges. Especially since I plan on entering this book in 2024.

Firefly Giveaway

This is my fifth novel. Year of the Firefly. I began writing it in 2019 and finished it in 2020. Unlike the four books that preceded it, I havenโ€™t talked about this one much. Mainly because it was written during one of the more turbulent and volatile stretches in our nationโ€™s history and chronicles the era from the point of view of a young liberal college student who manages to land herself in jail.

But despite Miranda McGuireโ€™s political views, this is not a political story. Year of the Firefly is the story of a highly intelligent opioid addict attempting to navigate the criminal justice system while simultaneously grappling with all the issues that many young women have to deal with.

Why am I qualified to tell this story? Iโ€™m not. Thatโ€™s why I view it as a miracle. Itโ€™s one thing to accurately depict the male prisoner experience, a subject I have known intimately since I was a 13-year-old in juvenile hall, but what do I know about synchronized menstruation? What do I know about colostrum and oxytocin and postpartum depression? What do I know about sexual pressure from staff? Absolutely nothing.

But in 2018, I kept receiving these messages from newly released women who had read Dragonfly or Giants on lockdown, thanking me for shining a light and saying things like โ€œyou wrote my life…โ€

Whoa.

So this is how the Miranda Rights series was born. And after five years, Iโ€™m a couple weeks away from releasing the final installment of the trilogy. Law of Momentum. Probably the last book I will write as a prisoner. In the meantime, Book One, Year of the Firefly, will be available as a free download in eBook format on Amazon for the first five days of October. Write me a review if you feel compelled ๐Ÿ™‚

For those of you who have been reading my novels for the last decade and change, I appreciate you more than words. โค See you on the other side. Momentum.