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Divine Intervention Part Two

An excerpt from Letters to the Universe. This essay was written two years ago. It was humbling to start all over when I thought I had my shit together. Now here we are two years later, two books later, two years clean. Stronger than ever. Time is a river . . . Momentum.

Divine Intervention Part Two

Photo of the author's father holding him the day he was born.

โ€œThe plains of desolation are white with the bones of countless millions who, at the very dawn of victory, sat down to wait . . . and while waiting, died.โ€

Who penned this powerful adage on the importance of perseverance, on striking while the proverbial iron is hot, on resisting the temptation to rest on oneโ€™s laurels?

I forget the dudeโ€™s name. Shonda googled it for me recently but between the head injuries, the dope smoke, and standard mid-life brain recalibration, itโ€™s getting more and more difficult to remember random trivia. The author of the quote is immaterial anyway, at least as he relates to the subject matter of this essay. In my mind it is eminent domain of my father, dead thirty years this coming September. Heโ€™s the only person Iโ€™ve ever heard recite it. I consider it one of Dadโ€™s greatest hits, right up there with โ€œThe Ballad of Samuel Hall,โ€ Bobby Goldsboroโ€™s โ€œHoneyโ€ (โ€œSee the tree, how big itโ€™s grown?โ€), random lines from Birdman of Alcatraz, and timeworn maxims like โ€œWhen you lose your temper, you loseโ€ and โ€œIf you fail to plan, then plan to fail.โ€

I can see him now, brow furrowed in contemplation, eyes finding mine in the rearview of our old brown Buick as endless rows of pine trees tick away outside the window, morphing into the familiar rivers and pastures and lonely county road overpasses on the stretch of I-10 between Mobile and Tallahassee.

โ€œThe plains of desolation are white with the bones of countless millions . . .โ€

What did it all mean? My seven-year-old brain could not grasp the concept. Perhaps neither of us did. But it sounded cool. And Dadโ€™s tone and delivery lent a certain profundity to the phrase, earmarking it as important.

Turns out it was.

I sat down to write my first novel at age 37, a little over 18 years after the prison chaplain at Lake Butler summoned me to his office to notify me that my father had passed. Eighteen years . . . It went by in a blink. Or maybe blur is a more accurate word. Back then, my fellow prisoners were always pontificating about the heightened sense of awareness that is a byproduct of doing time, and how it makes navigating life outside the razor wire a cinch. Theoretically, multiple years of staying on oneโ€™s toes and sleeping with one eye open was supposed to give a man a decided advantage over those somnambulant suckers out there slogging away on autopilot. Not so, in my experience. During my brief vacation of freedom, just after the turn of the century, that mean olโ€™ world chewed me up and spit me out quicker than you can say 10-20-Life. I got hooked on crack cocaine, crashed three different cars, endured brain surgery, received 70 staples in my head, was mauled by police canines, indicted by the federal government, and tossed back in the Escambia County Jail before I could even get my bearings.

My return to the joint was a homecoming of sorts. After spending most of my youth in institutions, the prison landscape was more familiar to me than the free world, the characters more predictable. I picked up right where I left offโ€”getting high, playing cards, working out, gambling on football. Clichรฉ prison shit. Years passed. But with them came a gnawing sense of dissatisfaction with the life I was living, with the man I had become. Similar to Izzy in On the Shoulders of Giants, I had grown sick of the yard with its dope and its gangs and its parlay tickets. I longed for something different, an identity other than failure-loser-career criminal. So, in 2011, I turned inward and lost myself in imagination and memory. What came out was Consider the Dragonfly.

Although the novel is a work of fiction, the family it is centered around closely resembles my own. This is especially true for the character of Chris McCallister who is Mac Collins note for note. From the messiah complex to the courtroom speech to the congestive heart failure at age 51. If you ever want to meet my father, his ghost still wanders the pages of that first bookโ€”smoking pot in Tampax wrappers and two-liter Pepsi bongs, having conversations with Peter Jennings through the television screen, blessing shoppers in a South Miami Publix. A grown child battling demons, a lost soul stumbling toward the light.

Despite this honest and, at times, unflattering characterization, I think Dad wouldโ€™ve loved the book. I think he wouldโ€™ve loved all of them. From Dragonfly to Giants to Entanglement and all points in between. He wouldโ€™ve dug these essays too. Not necessarily for any riveting plot lines or liquid prose but for the achievements themselves. For the work. I know he wouldโ€™ve been proud of the letter from President Obama, the Writerโ€™s Digest book award, and the article in the Pensacola News Journal.

My father was a lifelong fan of discipline and mastery. This may sound odd considering that he spent much of his adult life north of 300 pounds, smoked two packs of Camel non-filters a day, had a brutally low self-esteem, gambled recklessly, bought dope with grocery money, and was in every way about as undisciplined as a man could be. But maybe that was the point. Since self-discipline felt so unattainable to him, he coveted it the way others covet beauty or wealth or 4.3 speed.

His nightstand was usually littered with books by men like Dale Carnegie, Norman Vincent Peale, and Dr. Wayne Dyer. Masterworks on conquering the self, setting and exceeding personal goals, winning friends and influencing people . . . Iโ€™m certain the quote was lifted from the pages of one of these best-sellers. I can imagine him committing it to memory, repeating it over and over with all the desperation and fervor of a religious fanatic.

โ€œThe plains of desolation are white with the bones . . .โ€

This essay was supposed to have been written in October. At the checkered flag of my final year in state prison. It was supposed to be about finishing strong and doubling down on all the things that changed my life over the course of this decades-long journey. Unfortunately, I took my eyes off the road and ended up in a ditch.

If you read my last essay, TICKETMAN, then you know that I recently decided to let the old meโ€”a lost soul who went by the name of CCโ€”out of solitary confinement. Just to run Bond Money, my old football ticket. And perhaps participate in a little well-earned debauchery with some of my homeboys, many of whom Iโ€™ll never see again once I walk out the gate. No harm in that, right? I can be moderate. Itโ€™s not like I havenโ€™t enjoyed a joint here and there over the last couple years, or drank a little buck. These things are part of the prison experience. How could I continue to write convincingly about this world that Iโ€™ll be leaving soon if I didnโ€™t fully immerse myself in the culture from time to time? Consider it gonzo journalism.

Yeah, bad move, Hunter S. Thompson.

This delusional pursuit of moderation quickly devolved into nights burning stick after stick of a new and unfamiliar drug in a cell full of strangers, smoke-stained fingers singed and cracked from holding Brillo wire to batteries in order to light yet another, groping blindly on the floor in the dark for any dope I might have dropped during the day. Me, the great Malcolm Ivey, award-winning author of six novels, acclaimed essayist, beacon of mastery, spouter of platitudes, ejaculator of self-help advice . . . crawling around on the floor like a damned crackhead. Again. That was the scariest partโ€”my response to this strange 2022 substance mirrored my response to crack cocaine in 2004, the drug that cost me 20 years in prison and almost cost me my life.

In the span of a few short weeks, I found myself staring into the abyss. Every inch of ground I had gained over the last 12 years was suddenly crumbling beneath my feet. Dark clouds were gathering. Vultures circled overhead. Yet night after night as I lay in my bunk coming downโ€”heart pounding, sweat pouring, the stench of failure all over meโ€”a staticky and persistent voice kept repeating in my head like an AM radio broadcast circa 1981.

โ€œThe plains of desolation are white with the bones of countless millions who, at the very dawn of victory, sat down to wait . . . and while waiting, died.โ€

Dad. Those eyes in the rearview, clear as the morning sky. A seven-year-old boy in the back seat of a Buick. Interesting how the above quote could have so little impact 40 years ago but could prove to be so relevant in 2022. Those words saved my life.

Possibly. Or perhaps this essay is a romantic oversimplification of my own near-death and bounce-back. After all, there were a myriad of reasons to get up off the mat: a solitary girl, some little people who need strength and stability in their lives, a mom pushing 80 whoโ€™s spent the last 30 years in prison visitation parks, my time-barred brothers and sisters who are counting on me in the long fight for a parole mechanism in the state of Florida, books to write, a world to see . . .

Still, thereโ€™s something about that quote; how it got lodged in my head like a splinter and refused to come out, how it played over and over like one of Dadโ€™s old Everly Brothers 45s on the family RCA. Out of nowhere and at just the right time. The starry-eyed writer in me prefers the mystical explanation; that my fatherโ€”or the combination of my father and a force more loving, more powerful, and more intelligent than my father could ever hope to beโ€”stashed a life raft on Interstate 10 all those years ago. And that proved to be the difference. As Jason Isbell sings in โ€œNew South Walesโ€: โ€œGod bless the busted boat that brings us back.โ€

Either way, the whole experience was enough to make me take my ass to church, a place I havenโ€™t been in a quarter-century. If for nothing else than just to change up the energy and escape the hopelessness of my unit for an hour. Iโ€™ve been attending for a month now. But thatโ€™s another essay.

โ€”December 2022

The Law of Momentum: Part Three

Almost eight years ago, shortly after Donald Trump was elected to the White House, my friend Amy sent me a picture of a massive protest in Washington, D.C. A sea of humanity pumping clenched fists and picket signs flooded the streets of our nationโ€™s capital to protest the incoming president in what was billed a Womenโ€™s March. There was a caption above the million strong throng that said something like โ€œThis Saturday, pussy grabs back!โ€

Nice zinger for sure, but the words proved to be empty. Fast forward a few years. Three Supreme Court justices and one landmark ruling later, Trumpโ€™s campaign promise to overturn Roe v. Wade became a reality. And those protesters, along with childless cat ladies everywhere, suffered a major setback.

To add insult to injury, the unthinkable happened in the 2024 Republican primaries. Despite the indictments, despite January 6, despite enough baggage to double the market value of Louis Vuitton, despite a clearly more competent and capable candidate in Nikki Haleyโ€”the 78-year-old Donald had somehow ascended back to the top of the GOP ticket with relative ease. Without a single debate. And he completely remade the party in his own image in the process. Pretty remarkable, all things considered.

Meanwhile across the aisle, Democrats appeared . . . befuddled. The women who attended the aforementioned marchโ€”along with millions of other Americans who had come of age during the last two election cyclesโ€”needed a champion. Someone to rally behind. But all they had was a fading 82-year-old politician. A decent man. A man of faith and character. But also, a man who fell off stationary bikes, confused Ukraineโ€™s President Zelensky with his mortal enemy (โ€œLadies and gentlemen, Vladimir Putin!โ€), and a man whose cognitive decline was on full display in a June debate trouncing by Donald Trump.

For well over half the country, the outlook was extremely bleak. And for the handful of remaining centrists and independents, the choices were especially uninspiring. The bombastic megalograndiosity of Trump versus the meandering incoherence of Biden. Scorched earth versus fog and mist. Age 78 versus age 82 in an election that could be sponsored by Depend Adult Undergarments. A blunt sign in the front yard of a Tennessee woman summed up the national mood in a campaign slogan of her own: โ€œFuck โ€™em both 2024.โ€

Then bullets rained down on a MAGA rally in Butler, Pennsylvania, killing a firefighter dad, severely injuring two others, and grazing the ear of the former president, mere millimeters away from certain death. When the bloodied candidate arose, fist clenched, shouting โ€œfight, fight!โ€ with the American flag in the background, it felt like the election was a foregone conclusion. Especially when these images of strength were contrasted against an enfeebled Biden isolating in Rehoboth, Delaware, with covid. A couple days later, Trump arrived at the RNC to a heroโ€™s welcome of thunderous applause. The subsequent polls showed him pulling away in battleground states. Even liberal strongholds like New Jersey and Virginia were suddenly in play. Everything was breaking in Trumpโ€™s favorย .ย .ย . Until Biden announced that he would not be seeking a second term and endorsed Kamala Harris as president.

Cue the proverbial needle dragging across a Kid Rock record. Scratch.

Not since Obama 2008 have I seen so much energy and buzz surrounding a candidate. The party was suddenly back in the Democratic Party. This year the DNC eschewed many of normal celebrity speeches in favor of cops, mass shooting survivors, people who were defrauded and ripped off by Trump University, veterans, Republicans, childhood friends and family members of the candidate as well as people whose lives she affected as a San Francisco prosecutor and California Attorney General. There were also profound and moving speeches by Barack and Michelle Obama, Pete Buttigieg, Raphael Warnock, Adam Kinzinger, and Oprah; speeches that transcended party politics and cut to the truth of what this election is all aboutโ€”who we are as a nation, what we stand for, whatโ€™s at stake . . . Then there was Tim Walz, her unlikely vice-presidential pick; a hunter, a 24-year National Guardsman, a former teacher and high school football coach. A midwestern everyman who shatters the myth that Republicans have the market cornered on masculinity.

But all this was preamble to the final speaker of the 2024 DNC, the Democratic candidate for president, Kamala Harris. She spoke about her mom and sister and the middle-class neighborhood that raised her, the lessons that were instilled in her as a child. Then she spoke about her time spent fighting for the people of California prosecuting murderers, rapists, child predators, fraudsters, drug traffickers. And her time as a U.S. senator where she continued to fight for her constituents. She also touched on the achievements of her current boss, Joe Biden, defending his record and honoring his 50+ years of service. But it was the policy part of her speech that I thought was truly magisterial, since the knock on her is that sheโ€™s all vibes and no substance . . .

Her immigration plan was simple; she would sign the same bipartisan bill that was set to pass six months ago but was blocked by Trumpโ€™s do-boys in the House because he did not want the issue solved before the election. Then she talked about her plan to keep growing the middle class, keep the current job market expanding, keep the worldโ€™s strongest economy moving in the right direction. She almost sounded like a Reagan Republican when she talked about having โ€œthe strongest and most lethal fighting force in the world,โ€ about standing with our allies, about supporting Ukraine . . . And if there was any doubt about where she stood on Israel, her forceful declaration about that nationโ€™s right to defend itself after the horrors of October 7 and Americaโ€™s full commitment to โ€œgive Israel whatever it needs to defend itself against Iran and Iran-backed terroristsโ€ was a burning spear thrust into the political sand. She also alluded to the 40,000 dead Palestinians and how securing a peace deal is paramount. Finally, she talked about womenโ€™s reproductive rights and signing a law to make Roe v. Wade the law of the land.

It was an epic and authentic finale that underscored and reiterated many of the themes raised throughout the four-day convention. On a personal note, I came away feeling hopeful, energized, and proud to be an American. Even in this prison cell where I sit writing this essay.

In part one of this โ€œLaw of Momentumโ€ series, I forecasted a blowout loss for Democrats and recommended a full postmortem on a party that had lost its way. (I also referred to Kamala Harris as a โ€œlow-polling former prosecutor Vice President who disproportionately incarcerated the same demographic she would need to win.โ€ Oops.) In part two, I reiterated the question, โ€œDid Republicans peak to early?โ€ After an uplifting and raucous DNC, buzzing with hope, that seems to be the case. But the election is still over two months away. I suspect there will be more twists and turns down the stretch. Including an upcoming debate that should have Super Bowl-level television ratings. Whatever happens, we are fortunate enough to have front row seats in the theater of history. These are fascinating times.

Wishing you momentum, my friends.

โ€”August 25, 2024

Anything is Possible

Dateline: Washington, D.C., Inauguration Day 2021.

As President Joe Biden looks out over the empty windswept National Mall and into the living rooms of 325 million Americans, pumping a message of healing and unity, the odds of his successโ€”of Americaโ€™s successโ€”could not be longer.

Rahm Emanuel recently framed it like this: โ€œLincoln had the Civil War, Wilson had the pandemic, Roosevelt had the Depression, and LBJ had the civic unrest of the 1960s . . . Biden has all four.โ€

Sobering thought. And this is not even factoring in the bridge-mending that will have to be done with our allies, addressing our crumbling infrastructure, reigniting faith in our cratering institutions, negating the inroads that Putin and the Russians have made into our election system, improving health care, solving immigration, passing criminal justice reform, managing the opioid crisis . . .

And he must do it while navigating the smoke and noise of a sensationalist, hyperventilating media, as well as the conspiracy theorists, the Trump loyalists, the extreme wing of his own Democratic party, and the binary reality of modern American politics where one side needs the other to fail.

This will no doubt be an extremely tough task.

But he wanted it. He earned it. Fought through the field in a packed primary, survived one particularly brutal debate, an election night that dragged on for days, an iconoclastic incumbent who refused to accept defeat, and an attempted insurrection, all to arrive at this moment in history. Now here he is. Here we are. The question is: where are we going?

One of the many frustrating themes of the outgoing Trump regime was its disdain for the truth. They coined the phrase โ€œalternative factsโ€ from the jump, and it would become a cornerstone of the administration for the duration. In order for us to find our way out of the wilderness, the truth needs to be magnetic north on our national compass.

Here are some hard truths that President Biden and congressional members of both parties must come to terms with over these next pivotal years:

โ€” Racism is a massive problem in this country, but no ethnicity has a monopoly on it. Double standards have become increasingly glaring in recent years and hate groups are using these as tools to recruit and indoctrinate Americaโ€™s alienated youth. If we continue down this road of highlighting the skin color of bad cops and unarmed victims only when it suits a certain narrative, weโ€™ll never disentangle ourselves from the baggage of our ancestors. We are Americans first. Black, white, brown, red, yellow, blue, whatever. Our histories and destinies are all entwined. And whenever any American kills another American, itโ€™s a sad day for us as a people.

โ€” Compromise needs to make a comeback. Special interest groups like Planned Parenthood and the NRA view any concession (the banning of third-trimester abortions, the banning of automatic assault rifles) as a slippery slope toward their own extinction. They use their money and influence to strong-arm senators into never giving an inch. This is no way to govern. The ability to work with those across the aisle is an asset, not a liability. We should demand it from our representatives.

โ€” American isolationism is bad for us and bad for the world. Bidenโ€™s former boss said it best: โ€œIf moral claims are insufficient for us to act as a continent implodes, there are certainly instrumental reasons why the U.S. and its allies should care about failed states that donโ€™t control their territories, canโ€™t combat epidemics, and are numbed by civil war and atrocity. It was in such a state of lawlessness that the Taliban took hold of Afghanistan. It was in genocidal Sudan that bin Laden set up camp for several years. Itโ€™s in the misery of some unnamed slum that the next killer virus will emerge . . .โ€ We are all connected. Thereโ€™s a reason why we helped establish organizations like the U.N., the IAEA, and the WHO. Our failure to lead over the last four years has created a vacuum where China has made significant gains. Do we really want an authoritarian government setting the international tone?

Our nation is often referred to as a โ€œdemocratic experiment.โ€ And lately weโ€™ve come dangerously close to having that experiment blow up in our faces. Free and fair elections, the peaceful transition of power, the right to assemble, free speech, due process . . . the very document that guarantees our liberty has come under attack. But weโ€™re still here. Still kicking. Still the gold standard for freedom. โ€œWe hold these truths to be self-evident . . .โ€ Thereโ€™s a reason people brave shark-infested waters and coyotes and narcos and ICE cages and miles of desert to get here. Hope. Anything is possible in America.

So now the nation, and much of the world, looks to Mr. Biden to orchestrate our comeback. It starts today. And his success is our success. Can we pull it off? Again, the odds are long. But I wouldnโ€™t bet against us.

โ€”January 2021

Big Deal

Long ago, in a political galaxy far, far away, a young Barack Obama uncorked his first term presidential pen to sign the Affordable Care Act into law; an historic event made all the more memorable by his then vice president leaning forward and declaring into a hot mic, โ€œThis is a big fuckinโ€™ deal man!โ€

That was my first time noticing Joe Biden. But as the years passed, I picked up little pieces of info in articles and interviews. His blue-collar upbringing, his stuttering problem as a child, the unimaginable tragedy of losing his first wife and daughter in a horrific car wreck, then losing his son Beau to cancer, and watching his other son Hunter succumb to addiction, sprinkle in a couple brain aneurisms along the way, and now this most recent very public decline… This is the human being behind the presidential seal. An American grandfather. An overcomer. The pride of Scranton, Pennsylvania.

It must have been extremely difficult for Joe to come to the conclusion that he was no longer the man for the job, to take the word of others when they told him he couldnโ€™t win. After all, heโ€™d been told this same thing for most of his life and had still risen to the most powerful office in the world.

Case in point: after serving two terms as Obamaโ€™s vice president, he was told not to run in 2016. His old boss supported Hillary that yearย .ย .ย . And the unthinkable happenedโ€”she lost to Donald Trump, a guy Biden went on to beat in 2020. And now in 2024 these same people are telling him he canโ€™t win? I see why his initial reaction was โ€œWatch me.โ€

In a more perfect world this elderly statesman, one of the last of his kind, would be treated with kindness by political opponents and allies alike as he makes his way through the last few months of a 50-year career in civil service. A farewell tour for an American legend. The 46th President of the United States.

With all the misinformation and political rhetoric of an election season, many of his administrationโ€™s triumphs have gone unnoticed. True enough, he gets an F on the southern border and an F on Afghanistan, but we dodged a recession that last year economists were saying was inevitable, our post-Covid economy is recovering faster than any other nation in the world, unemployment is at a record low, the stock market is hitting record highs, violent crime is down more than 20% from this time last year. Then thereโ€™s the Inflation Reduction Act that is simultaneously rebuilding the countryโ€™s crumbling infrastructure and the historic CHIPS Act that is designed to wrestle back the superconductor industry from overseas and stamp โ€œMade in the USAโ€ on the worldโ€™s microchips in the coming decade . . .

But Joe Bidenโ€™s greatest contribution to date might be his final contribution. Where his opponents would deny election results and stoke violence in efforts to cling to power, he released it in the best interest of democracy. We may be too close to see it right now. But somewhere down the winding road of history, some future historian might point to this very moment and describe it in Bidenโ€™s colorful language . . .

โ€œThis is a big fucking deal man!โ€

โ€”July 21, 2024

The Law of Momentum: Part Two

Ah, momentum. Such a fickle and mercurial force. Just ask any athlete. Or anyone who gambles on sports.

One minute youโ€™re rolling, racking up chunk yardageโ€”rushing touchdowns, passing touchdowns, forced fumbles, pick-sixes; while across the field it looks like someone put Xanax in the Gatorade.

But then, just before halftime, the opposing team makes a goal line stand, followed by a kickoff return for a touchdown to begin the third quarter, followed by a bone-crunching sack on your QB resulting in a fumble deep in your own territory. Suddenly you look up and what once appeared to be a blowout is only a one possession game with ample time left on the clock.

What happened? Momentum shifted.

For almost a month, beginning with President Bidenโ€™s incoherent debate performance and all throughout the mounting pressure campaign from his party to give up the car keys, the Trump candidacy has been ringing up yardage and points, riding a wave of momentum that soared even higher in the aftermath of an assassination attempt and reached a thunderous crescendo during last weekโ€™s RNC.

But a couple hours ago, the news broke that President Biden announced he is bowing out of the game and turning over the football to Vice President Harris.

Enter the goal line stand . . . Or the Hail Mary.

Democrats now have a month to get their shit together and generate some momentum before their Chicago convention in August. For all his recent traction in the battleground states of Michigan, Pennsylvania, and Wisconsin, Trump is still well within shouting distance. And despite a brilliant campaign being run by strategist Susie Wiles and company, he remains the most polarizing figure in politics. His kneejerk response to Bidenโ€™s announcement felt dickish and mean-spirited. A return to form. So much for recent spiritual awakenings. Maybe itโ€™s just his competitive nature, but I think he missed an opportunity to show some good sportsmanship and wish a rapidly declining elderly statesman well. While moments like these may appeal to his base, they could alienate potential voters and further stall momentum.

Today, the race still appears to be Trumpโ€™s to lose. But the next 100 days just got interesting. Like I mentioned in โ€œLaw of Momentum: Part One,โ€ with a little enthusiasm and a successful convention, a month from now we could be asking, โ€œDid Republicans peak too early?โ€

Weโ€™re about to find out.

โ€”July 21, 2024

The Law of Momentum: Part One

โ€œWhoa…There is absolutely no way that the Republican Party can ever come back from this…โ€

These were my thoughts as I watched the hyperventilating news coverage of January 6th. In retrospect, Iโ€™m sure I said this with my arms crossed and a smug look on my face, casting sideways told-you-so glances at the other inmates in the dayroom. There are few things in this world as satisfying as being rightโ€”and the majority of these things are beyond the reach of prisoners. So, I was enjoying my little victory lap.

Of course, I was also thinking โ€œthis is a dark day for Americaโ€ and โ€œI canโ€™t believe this happening hereโ€ yada yada . . . But mostly I was relishing the nationally televised unravelling while mentally waving bye-bye to the clown car of congressional sycophants and enablers that had started popping up in DC ever since the man Himself came down the escalator.

Fast forward three and one half years . . .

As the balloons fell over the Fiserv arena in Milwaukee and the final words of Donald Trumpโ€™s 90-minute speech echoed throughout America and the world; on a night that featured a black, female, lifelong Democrat school teacher from North Carolina, a powerful monologue from son Eric, a shot of adrenaline from Hulk Hogan, a fist-pumping performance from Detroitโ€™s Kid Rock, and a testosterone-fueled introduction from the UFCโ€™s Dana White; with the crowd on their feet cheering for their bandaged candidate, five days after an assassination attempt, projecting strength and calm, surrounded by his wife, children and grandchildrenย .ย .ย . The Republican Party looks anything but dead. On the contrary, they look unified.

Contrast those imagesโ€”all the strength and momentum and clarity of messageโ€”against the disarray and dysfunction of the Democratic Party. Whoโ€™s their leader? A โ€œwell-meaning elderly gentleman with memory issuesโ€ currently offline with Covid, but even on his most lucid days, a man who has difficulty illustrating the successes of his administration? A low-polling, former prosecutor Vice President who made a career out of disproportionately incarcerating the same demographic she would need to win? A young and charismatic governor from one of the battleground states? At this point it feels like Democrats are already four touchdowns behind with only minutes left in the game. Is a quarterback change really going to help? Maybe. Theoretically, if they went into their August convention with a candidate who could generate enthusiasm, a month from now we could be asking, โ€œDid Republicans peak too early?โ€ But on the day after the RNC, that sure feels like a longshot. Iโ€™m not even certain Michelle Obama could win this election.

Personally, Iโ€™d let Biden go out on his own terms. Iโ€™d treat him with the honor and dignity and respect he deserves. Then after the inevitable blowout loss, Iโ€™d go back to the drawing board, do a full postmortem on a party that has lost its way and begin the rebuild project. With the average American as its cornerstone and a message of hope and prosperity as its polestar.

Seems like a daunting task with all the momentum flowing in the other direction. Iโ€™m sure the MAGA strategists were feeling the same way in the aftermath of January 6th with the subsequent raids and indictments and underwhelming midterms. But if the rise and fallโ€”and rise and fallโ€”and rise (with a clenched fist) of Donald Trump has taught us anything, it is thisย .ย .ย . In America, anything is possible.

โ€”July 19, 2024

Not Your Father’s Party

โ€œI didnโ€™t leave the Democratic Party . . . The Democratic Party left me.โ€

I was surprised to hear this quote attributed to Ronald Reagan. Widely acknowledged as the greatest Republican of the modern era, I just assumed he was a lifer. Not a convert. Makes me wonder what turned him off. What was the tipping point? Vietnam? Roe v. Wade? The Carter-era recession?

Imagine how he would feel today. Democrats are about 1,000 clicks to the left of where they were back when he was roaming the halls of the White House. I barely recognize them, and Iโ€™ve been leaning leftward since I first heard the words criminal justice reform. What do you think Mr. Reagan would make of drag queen story hour or woke twitter or gender-neutral pronouns? No matter where you fall on the political spectrum, I think we can agree on what the great manโ€™s reaction might be. Something along the lines of Wtf?

But I doubt he would he recognize the Republican Party either. Not this 2024 version. I know I sure as hell donโ€™t. And Iโ€™m not even talking about the tattoo-faced influencers addressing the once puritanical Republican National Convention. Or Hulk Hogan. Iโ€™m talking policy . . . core beliefs . . . political philosophy.

All my life, Republicans have been hawkish on war and interventionism while also pro-Wall Street and big business. They were the boring old adults in the room who served as a check on those wild-eyed liberals with their radical ideas. Democrats, on the other hand, once represented the anti-war movement abroad and at home, and marched in lockstep with the unions. While their โ€œtrickle-down-economicsโ€ Republican counterparts fought for the fat bottom lines of Americaโ€™s corporate world, Democrats fought for the working man.

Those days are over.

I was blown away on Monday night when Sean Oโ€™Brien of the Teamsters union addressed the RNC. And he pulled zero punches. A crowd that earlier booed patron saint of Kentucky Mitch McConnell, applauded when this guy spoke of corporate greed and fair wages. Applauded. Then on Wednesday night, Ohio Senator and Vice President hopeful J.D. Vance exalted the American worker and took a decided swipe at โ€œWall Street barons.โ€ He also laid into a government that sent young men off to die in Iraq, and he is probably the most vocal senator when it comes to defunding the war effort in Ukraine.

Iโ€™m not sure what the endgame is. A lot of that depends on their fearless leader who, like Reagan, recently survived an assassination attempt. One thing is clearโ€”this is not your fatherโ€™s Republican Party.

โ€”July 18, 2024

July 13

โ€œThere are decades when nothing happens and weeks when decades happen,โ€ Lenin once said. I think America just experienced one of those weeks.

First, we had the Clooney op-ed in the New York Times imploring President Biden to bow out of the election, followed by speculation on MSNBCโ€™s Morning Joe and other outlets that Obama was behind it all, followed by the unscripted press conference that Biden called to quell rumors about the decline of his cognitive ability, which had not even begun when he mistakenly introduced Ukrainian President Zelensky as โ€œPresident Putinโ€ at a NATO Summit. But all these will be minor footnotes in the annals of history compared with what happened at the end of the week.

Saturday, July 13, 2024. 6:15pm EST. Like the space shuttle Challenger, the OJ verdict, 9-11, and January 6th, I think itโ€™s safe to say that most Americans will remember exactly where they were when they saw the footage of the attempted assassination of Republican nominee and former President Donald Trump. The speech, the shots, the screams, the blood, the raised fist, the chants of โ€œUSA!โ€

Twenty-four hours later, Iโ€™m sitting on the floor of my cell trying to process it all. The ripple effects. The crossroads at which our nation finds itself. The danger, the heroism, the firefighter dad who lost his life, the other two people who were critically injured, the shouts at the press, โ€œYou did this!โ€, the motive of the 20-year-old shooter, and above it all, the iconic image of the bloodied former President saying โ€œFight! Fight!โ€ as he was whisked into the armored Beast by the Secret Service.

Lots to unpack.

But one thing feels certain here on the eve of the Republican National Convention. The bullet that miraculously grazed Donald Trumpโ€™s ear on Saturday evening was a direct hit on the already floundering Biden campaign.

โ€”July 15, 2024

American Exports

An American wearing a "Made in America" t-shirt and holding an American flag.

Iโ€™ve been playing a lot of guitar lately. One of the perks of federal prison. The lead guitarist of the band Iโ€™m in is named Vinny. At first, I wondered if he was Italian, but it turns out that Vinny is not short for Vincenzo. Itโ€™s a nickname. Short for Venezolano. Heโ€™s from Venezuela.

If right now youโ€™re thinking โ€œUh oh. Venezuelan immigrant. Bad hombre alert . . .โ€ thatโ€™s understandable, I guess. Between some of the recent tragic news stories and Trumpโ€™s alarmist, broad-brush declarations of murderers and rapists, itโ€™s easy to dismiss entire nationalities as horrible people. But for the record, dude is the exact opposite of all that. A gentle spirit who loves rock-n-roll, hates drugs, and teaches a GED class in the education building.

The other night after two hours of Skynyrdโ€™s โ€œSimple Man,โ€ Claptonโ€™s โ€œCocaine,โ€ Stone Temple Pilotsโ€™, โ€œPlushโ€ and Velvet Revolverโ€™s โ€œFall to Pieces,โ€ we were unplugging amps and wrapping mic cords when he started telling me about a Guns Nโ€™ Roses concert in Caracas in the early โ€™90s. The venue was one of those massive South American soccer stadiums. When Axl sat down at the grand piano and played the opening notes of โ€œNovember Rain,โ€ the sky opened up and a light drizzle began to fall over the 100,000 people in attendance.

As he was telling me this story, I tried to imagine all those G Nโ€™ R fans down near the equator. Which made me think of the time I heard Shakira, the pop star from across the Venezuelan border in Colombia, cover AC/DCโ€™s โ€œBack in Black.โ€  Then I remembered that Kim Jong Il was a huge Elvis fan and that his son, Kim Jong Un, loves the former Chicago Bull, Dennis Rodman. Muhammad Aliโ€™s Thriller in Manilla and Rumble in the Jungle, Michael Jacksonโ€™s Bad world tour, Leviโ€™s jeans, Coca-Cola, Motown, muscle cars, baseball, breakdancing, Mississippi Delta blues, Metallica, the Empire State Building, Microsoft, Google, Amazon . . .

Once upon a time, this nationโ€™s greatest export wasnโ€™t any single commodity. It was what rock-n-roll and Leviโ€™s and Coca-Cola represented: The American Spirit. We were the envy of the world. A shining example of everything a free country could be. And as a result, the Berlin wall came down, the cold war ended without a shot being fired, and McDonaldโ€™s started popping up all over what was once the U.S.S.R.

But think about it. What have we been exporting lately? School shootings, Capitol riots, border chaos, Fentanyl overdoses, MSNBC, Fox News, hate, division, a citizenry at each otherโ€™s throats…

I remember being shocked when the news broke about a horrific school shooting in Thailand last year. Thailand? This was followed by a similar incident in Prague, the first in that countryโ€™s history. How many capitol riotsโ€”or โ€œsightseeing tours,โ€ if you preferโ€”have there been since January 6, 2021? I know of at least two: one in Brazil not too long afterward, and there was another last week in Kenya. Coincidence? Probably.

But itโ€™s no coincidence that far right movements and authoritarian strongmen are popping up all over the globe. In the great geopolitical game of Follow the Leader, America sets the tone.  We are the worldโ€™s longest running democracy. And for decades our quality of life has been the most powerful argument against dictatorships, autocracies, and communist systems of government.

Liberty, Justice, Honor, Opportunityโ€”these are more than just flowery ideals. They are what make us uniquely US. And they are what inspires the rest of the world to want to be like us. The hope and promise of freedom is our greatest export. Letโ€™s not piss it away.

โ€”July 12, 2024